"Understanding the past is key to changing the future."
If I could manipulate time as I pleased, then rather than see the future from the past, I would prefer to look upon the past and present with the understanding that I will gain in the future. It is wisdom that I crave, wisdom and understanding that helps one to make the best choices possible.
At times in my life, I have had some measure of understanding that others did not; this, however, was balanced by my total lack of understanding in other important areas. Why is it that I can give better advice to other people than I can give to myself? It's like I'm farsighted: the closer it gets to me, the less clear it becomes. Yet, when time passes, I can look back and know exactly what I should have done.
This is as frustrating as leaving a test only to remember the answers to the problems you missed. Somewhere in my head, the answer exists; never-the-less, I cannot bring it to the forefront until it is too late. The worst part is knowing that I already have the answer, but being unable to use what I have learned when I need it most. Is there some discipline that I must learn, perhaps a pair of glasses that can correct my vision?
On a separate topic, though perhaps not wholly unrelated, my mind seems to be far ahead of my ability. In my writing, the story is written in my mind - why can't I get it onto the page? I know exactly what I want to draw, but my fingers will not cooperate. The music I've designed is beautiful, but my ineptitude at performance makes it difficult to share with the world. I should probably learn to write the music down on paper, but I'm afraid I cannot even do that right now.
What do I need to practice to calm my mind and apply what I know about others to my own situations?
I must think on this.
Edit:
I just went over some old emails from when I was 14, and to my abject horror I made the same mistakes then as I did during college. Same song different verse. I shall now go hang my head in shame for not learning the first time.
Our bodies are limited, but our minds are not. The hard part is getting our finite abilities to catch up to our infinite ideas.
ReplyDeleteYou have an amazing mind - truly one of a kind. It is my hope that I can help you execute all of your unique ideas. It's what I'm here for.