Less haste, more speed!

I think I'm getting back into the swing of things.  I've returned to habits of practicing, learning, even exercising.  Slowly but surely, I find myself filling each hour with productive activity, leaving less and less time to waste.  I examine and learn from my mistakes, from which I learn more than from what I did correctly.

Balance between creating and enjoying is difficult at best.  Though I'm not nearly as good at multitasking as I was just years ago, I am still able to do both at the same time (to a degree).  Sometimes that is as simple as listening to music while writing this post; other times it's a bit more difficult, like watching a movie while I try to keep my hardcore character alive in Diablo.  Back in college days I could do much more, like carry on a conversation with someone while watching a show and typing a program, but it seems as though my brain has been altered in such a way that I can no longer follow a conversation and a show at the same time.  In part, this saddens me: I now have to choose one or the other.  On the other hand, I think my focus has improved with at the same time. Is this a good thing?  I'm not so sure.  I think it has something to do with the lack of piano practice, as my right and left hand do not seem to get along as well as they used to.  This bears further study.

Regardless, I find myself content either way.  Life is really quite good, though I envy the time my wife get's to spend with our child.  She says she's always busy, but I'd rather be busy at home with Jaya than to spend half of my time at work.  No complaints about work, my job is great; it's just a bit lonely.  Sometimes that's a good thing, though.  I being alone gives me time to think, which is always good.  Well, sometimes it's frustrating though.  I composed a rather complex orchestral piece, but I have no way to write it down so it will be gone soon.  I will be getting a good program to write this stuff down soon, but that still only applies to some of the week.  I keep finding myself creative at work but not so much at home.  I guess I need to work on that, no? 

So I push myself to be a little creative every day (hence the blog).  Writing, walking, and studying.  I wonder if I can get to where I want to be with little exercises like this?  I need to be patient again, and remember that proficiency takes much more hard work and time than I would prefer.